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vicious as coitus
03:30
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2. |
le proces
05:15
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Sick of it all – mostly myself
With everything gone – with everything gone – with everything gone
How do I know when I’ve lost?
This is what always keeps me awake – the noise of the nothing – the noise of the fake
The noise of disease - the noise of mistakes
In dreams, in dreams – MY DREAMS HAVE DIED – in time, in time – SO HAVE I
Aimed at everything too far away so I stay so ashamed
Everyday it’s the same there’s just too much pain
So hard to believe with all that you’ve seen, when there’s nothing that’s clean
And there’s nothing inside, so there’s nowhere to hide,
So there’s no need for pride, so my ego has died…
Everything is empty, all of us are dead…am I all broken, is it just in my head?
Torn between what I need and what I want…what makes me happy and what gets me off
Letting go and giving in, all the things you could have fucking been
Too hard to believe in just one damn thing, the whole world’s a disease; a whore on its knees
(put your disease in me, make me betray everything)
A better future some might say, a better future, but not today
You would undress with slender, sacred gestures and it would be like a holocaust…
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3. |
Almost, Always and Again
04:08
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Afraid to commit cause I’m not sure what I want
Afraid to be honest because I’m a fraud
Afraid of myself so I fill up with drugs
Won’t figure it out, I’ll just push it away
Never tell the truth because I’m too afraid
Almost, always and again
Almost, always and again
Almost, always and again
I can live - through you
I will love - through you
I am forced - on you
(What I don’t know proves what I was all along
My religion of lies, my rhythm of self-control)
Almost, always, and again
A DEMON NATION RIOTS IN OUR BRAINS
Almost, always, and again
YOU THINK YOU’RE SMARTER
THAN ALL THE PAIN
Almost, always, and again
THERE IS A HOLE IN THIS APE
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4. |
Divine Comedy
04:08
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After all the failure I should have learned,
Laugh it off, then move on
But where are you and who am I?
I sit back and think about my great mistake
But I won’t give in and I can’t repent
There is no god with love for this
Long dark night without tears
We make it hell so it feels real
GET AHOLD OF ME, MAKE ME FEEL AGAIN
HELP ME BE SOMEONE I CAN LOVE AGAIN
But you can’t do that, 'cause this is all there is to life
And no one will miss it 'cause no one cares
Invisible monsters, fatal errors
I threw away my fears today, I let my ego die
I broke up all your altars, I smashed up all your lies
Christ walks by, hands out lives
Designer dressing compromise
Death is religion selling us hell
Material gods just buy what you sell
I threw away my fears today, I let my ego die
I threw away my fears today, I let my ego die
I threw away my fears today, I let my ego die
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My little lie that’s not complete
This isn’t me, this random poetry
It all looks and acts like a falling world
It all looks and acts just like it should
I trick myself to believe -
- in some form of purity
There’s no such thing, there’s no such thing
This is what I am, this is what is killing me
but with you in my heart I could forget the world
but with you in my heart I could forget the world
Now I’ve got this clever new disguise
It’s a mask of all the lies
I tell myself, I keep inside
Its just enough to get me by
Suffocate in your eyes collapse on your lips
That same old port that’s launched a thousand ships
And the only thing that I want this bad
is the one fucking thing that I’ve never had
So how can I pretend I’m free?
How can I not feel a thing?
Throwing up the memories
Leaving you in tears again
And not all of paradise is lost…
Not all of paradise is lost…
Not all of paradise is lost etc…
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In a dream I pulled all the white strings
from your trashy heart -
It was cohesive, yet in places, it fell apart
I’ve got this blood; I’ve got this human disease
Push everyone away then wish they’d stayed
Nothing’s right but nothing’s wrong
I live through, I carry on…
You’ll never be someone who understands
Wrap insecurities around your head
Ill-bred disgusting fucking rotten disease
I’ll never let a piece of you back inside of me
Fucking bullshit – fucking world
Fucking people – fucking cold
Fucking broke my fucking soul
I don’t want you anymore
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7. |
closedown
04:30
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Stitching up all my loose ends
Time to close it down and pack it in
Hiding behind what I’ve left of this heart
Eager for the death of my art
It does not hurt anymore
You mean nothing
You mean nothing, you mean nothing
Shattered like a ghost
Living life on broken glass
This filthy liar’s final collapse
It does not connect anymore
I feel nothing
I feel nothing, I feel nothing
Remember how it ends,
Now begin again
The old hell, the real hell
Hell opened by the hands of man
It does not matter anyway
I mean nothing
I mean nothing, I mean nothing
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8. |
Painting With a Knife
03:24
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9. |
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To come out the other side, you have to go through
Nowhere, somewhere, anywhere but here
Please won’t it all just fall, make it come apart
How much did you think I’d take, before I gave up, before I’d break.
Always the same, nothing's gonna change
Everything will come around again
The laughable charade of purity
Can’t something make this go away?
Something… had… to end
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Oh, I’m gonna take you; do whatever the fuck I want
Gonna break you down to the nothing you’ve become
Gonna fuck you like the whore that you are
Gonna make you denounce your god
I’ve lived through all of this, watched my dreams turn to shit
Ego-centric, empty lies
I wear the hat of compromise
Validate this life for me
I’ve been broken down so leisurely
I never got what you told me I’d get
Why’d you say what you said why’d you do what you did?
Still searching for everything in every wrong place
You aren’t a part of me but you’re a disgrace
An angel of sores
When you suck his cock do you taste my cum?
When he eats your pussy do you feel my tongue?
You made a choice, you were wrong, I never knew indifference could last this long.
Oh I’m gonna take you, do whatever the fuck I want
Gonna break you down to the nothing that you are
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11. |
Well Oiled Farce
03:04
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Nice cool sheets
Your leg on the sink while you’re brushing your teeth
Everything I want to say has already been said
Your little speaker my only friend
You were always there to push me aside
All I want is to leave all of that behind
Break me up a little more, there’s still a piece that’s almost whole
You don’t know me, you never did
It’s still that night in my head
It’s a mystery, locked up inside of me
It’s a part you’ll never see
I made you who you are, fuck you, I’m still alive
Fuck you I don’t want you
Fuck you I don’t need you
I fuck you, I don’t love you
Fuck you I won’t be there
Fuck you I don’t want you
Fuck you I don’t need you
Fuck you I don’t love you
Fuck you I won’t be there
Fuck you I don’t want you
Fuck you I don’t need you
Fuck you I don’t love you
Fuck you I won’t be there
You fuck I can’t believe you
Fuck you I don’t want you
Fuck you I don’t need you
Fuck you I don’t love you
Fuck you I won’t be there
Fuck you I don’t want you
Fuck you I don’t need you
Fuck you I won’t be there
Fuck you I don’t love you
Fuck you I don’t want you
Fuck you I don’t need you
Fuck you I won’t be there
Fuck you I don’t want you
Fuck you I’ll forget you
Fuck you I’ll forget you
Fuck you I’ll forget you
Fuck you I’ll forget you
Fuck you I’ll leave you
Fuck you I don’t love you
Fuck you I don’t need you
Fuck you I won’t be there
Fuck you I’ll forget you
Fuck you
I’ll forget you
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12. |
Mindset
04:01
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How does it feel, to have it all inside you?
You have to tell, to help reveal how to put it all behind you
Nothing but cigarettes, and dried up cum
Tiny scrapes and clotted blood
Black stocking burn holes, mascara cried clean
Mercy for the weak is not what it seems
Everything is broken, even when it’s new
Everything means something, everything but you.
I’m barely squeezing the lies out fast enough
I don’t want to die, I just want the pain to stop
I’m barely squeezing the lies out fast enough
I don’t want to die, I just want the pain to stop
Blurred out of focus, distorted dream
Things are exactly as they seem
Simulated surroundings, simulated life
Just enough skin to hold the knife
I’m not sorry, no regrets, this... is what…
you... should get
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13. |
Fuck the Process
03:20
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Tempt me with your pussy
A way to sell your soul
Don’t you want to buy it?
Don’t you want to cum inside it?
Fuck the process
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14. |
The Point Is...
02:10
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I think it’s beginning, no it’s done
When can I give up?
When will it be gone?
If the worlds a stage, our bodies are props, inside out and all used up
Who am I when you’re all gone?
Been promised futures so we slave on
And the music will stop… but it will start again
Suffocated each and every day
I’m not inspired by anything anymore anyway
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16. |
I Might Feel Alive
03:16
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Draw me a picture of a fall-out shelter as the world goes to pieces
Break on down and give right in
Raised for nothing, born to end
Everyone’s out for their pound of flesh, call it ambition, call it a sickness
Draw me a picture of a fall-out shelter
Watch the world collapse
So sick of this place
Can’t stand this life
What’s to believe in when nobody is right?
The insides betray, the outsides lie
I’ve failed so many times I’m afraid to try
The insides betray, the outsides lie
I’ve failed so many times.
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